Tuesday, March 31, 2009

Good advice

“When you are asked if you can do a job, tell 'em, 'Certainly I can!' Then get busy and find out how to do it.”
~ Theodore Roosevelt

Sorry for not posting something more substantial. I've had something going on. Again, nothing bad so don't put me on any prayer chains or anything like that or start sending me sympathy cards. I'll be back with my blog-umentaries very soon. In the meantime go over to Pastor Trinity's blog if you haven't already and give him and encouraging word as he's going through his cancer treatments. Tell him I sent you -- that way he knows you aren't some freak stalking him on the web! :)

Monday, March 30, 2009

Monday reflections

Sorry to all peeps who get irritated when I don't post in the mornings. :) I know I affected your day so please accept my apologies. lol

Mondays are always slammed and today I was trying hard to knock out projects while being extremely tired because after leadership meeting Sunday night we talked late into the night with some who stayed. Always worth it though! What precious people...what a great team. We had a fantastic day at church yesterday, by the way!

After work I went home, biked 3 and 1/2 miles and then got ready to go meet the Garlands at Sonny's for Tom's Dad's "remembrance'" dinner. Today was his Dad's birthday and since his Dad has passed away he always eats at Sonny's on today's date since it was his Dad's favorite place to eat. It's a hard day for Tom and he wanted us to join him, so we did. Not that we don't like joining them ANYTIME! Tonight we had a good time talking and laughing lots and thinking of happy things. I came home to work on a few writing projects and now I"m hitting the sack with the Teeb.

That was my day. I'll post some deep thoughts later this week...promise!

Sunday, March 29, 2009

Re-cap of yesterday and forward to today

I had a great day yesterday for the most part. The first few hours really made my day and anything that could have happened after that was just icing on the cake. I am so blessed!!!

My life coaching class was yesterday and this is without a doubt one of my all time favorite things not just of the month, but out of everything in the whole wide world! We had a great morning and I am feeling like some members of the group are really moving forward. I am so proud of each of them! That was the best part of my day.

After life coaching I went to vacuum the sanctuary stage now that Kidzturn has packed up and moved to their next destination. Yes, we have someone else to do this, but I wanted it done "my way". Every woman can understand that I'm sure. Certain things drive me crazy on the platform and I don't always get around to fixing them but when I do, I do. So after taking an hour to fix it like I wanted it and take care of another few church projects I finally I headed home to start other things. Before I did I took a much needed nap. I didn't intend to sleep that long but I have really been exhausted from a few things that I haven't spoken about here on the blog, but maybe one day. There is nothing wrong. Some of you who read faithfully especially through the years know of different struggles I've had and I'm just setting you at ease, I am not in a crisis or sick or anything. Just have some other things going on that I am trying to find balance and rest right now.

So I slept. Longer than I planned on but that's okay. Then I moved on to cleaning, ironing, washing clothes, etc. There's a lot to be done for Sunday each week aside from service preparation...just getting our family ready personally and chores at home and stuff like that -- just like all of you reading this have, I'm sure. We have a leadership meeting tonight so I also was getting ready for that. I always love our team meetings.

Speaking of leaders - I know many of you are praying for our children's pastor, Trinity Mackley. He has cancer and is going through chemo. We were going to be having a special day of appreciation to honor he and Misty in church today but we will not be able to. He had to be admitted to Moffitt Cancer Center last night and he will be staying overnight a few days. He caught a cold and has a fever and that is not good. Please be in extra special prayer for him. You can read his blog where he journals his journey here. If you have time please stop over there on his blog and leave a comment and let him know you are lifting him up. He is always amazed when my readers who don't even know him stop over there and I tell him you are the most caring people in the world and he has many he doesn't even know lifting him up!!! For all of you Northsiders, just FYI that we will have the appreciation festivities next Sunday or the first Sunday he is back, whenever that is but I am believing in faith it will be next Sunday.

Here's to a great Sunday morning service...I have faith it will be amazing. God is going to show up and anything can happen.

Saturday, March 28, 2009


"Confidence comes not from always being right but from not fearing to be wrong."

~ Peter McIntyre

Friday, March 27, 2009

Recent photos of
Madeline and Jordan

Maddie laying on the furniture on our patio while Larry was doing some grilling the other night.

Madeline, just chillin'...

Jordan praying for some boys at the altar the other night...

Jordan lingers and talks to a boy after praying for him at the altar Wednesday night.


In the early hours of this morning, Jordan got home from work and checked his facebook and instantly received an IM from a friend who claimed to be in London, having been just robbed at gunpoint. Understandably Jordan was very concerned. His friend said he needed Jordan to send him some money immediately, as he was stranded. Jordan immediately alerted his father and I of the situation, thinking it was real and his friend needed help and wanted to know what he could or should do to reach out.

Thankfully I had just heard on the news the day before that this was a new facebook scam where people were hacking into people's accounts and contacting their friends to ask for money, saying that they were in dangerous or dire situations. I alerted Jordan and we contacted his friend and his friend's parents and sister to get ahold of him immediately to take care of his account. Jordan said, "Mom, you need to put this on your blog and let people know about it so it won't happen to them and they won't get deceived by this." He also wanted me to post the transcript of his chat with this person to show you just the type of things these people say. Please let people know about this deception that is happening.

As you can see when Jordan rebuked this person they quickly logged off:

12:26am Michael

Hello Jordan. How are you ?

im doing great man just got home from work
long time no talk how have ya been?

12:27am Michael
Well im stuck here in london and i really need some help out

in london?
help with what?

12:28am Michael
Yes...i had to visit a resort for vacation here in london and i got robbed at the hotel im staying

eh that sucks.
passports and everything taken?

12:29am Michael
Well i still have my passport with me

thats good

12:29am Michael
But all my money and wallet got stolen at a gun point

how long ago

12:30am Michael
It really sucks here
Two days ago now

thats crazy
so is all your money gone?

12:31am Michael
I just really need some help with flying back home
Yes....I just really need some money to complete my ticket fee now
Can i ask for a favor ?

you can ask for a favor...but im broke dude
i have like 10 bucks to my name

12:34am Michael
All i need is just $300 more

if i had the money dude id give it to you in a heart beat.
did you go to the police???

12:35am Michael
Yes..But they can help me out


12:36am Michael
Can you get me $100?
I can get it from the ATM for you as soon as im back home

dude i seriously have like 10 bucks to my name.
i wish i could help bro...

did you talk to your parents?

you there???

right now you are not only breaking federal law but you are in serious danger of going straight to hell. You do realize that don't you?

Your sins will find you out. God says everything will be shouted from the rooftops one day. What you have done is going to be seen by all on the day of judgment. You will not get away with this crime, I promise you. Shame on you, shame! Mike is a committed Christian and I am telling you the God he serves will not allow you to get away with this and GOD ALMIGHTY WILL TAKE VENGEANCE UPON YOU!!! Get ready because the weapon of the Lord is on it's way to bring you down, man. Better brace for it. It's headed your way.

1:20amMichael is offline.

Thursday, March 26, 2009

Cultural Holiness

"Many Christians have what we might call a "cultural holiness". They adapt to the character and behavior pattern of Christians around them. As the Christian culture around them is more or less holy, so these Christians are more or less holy. But God has not called us to be like those around us. He has called us to be like himself. Holiness is nothing less than conformity to the character of God."

~ Jerry Bridges

Wednesday, March 25, 2009

You know you're from Maryland if...

My friend Janice sent me this and it brought back such memories. I do remember all of them but only commented some of them. Those of you who are from Maryland, enjoy!

* You know how to pronounce "Towson".

* You remember what the Inner Harbor looked like before it was the Inner Harbor. (yes I do!)

* You ate at Haussner's. (Yes, I did several times notably after my high school graduation. The art was amazing.)

* You remember Friendship Airport.

* You remember driving over the old Kent narrows Draw-Bridge that snarled weekend traffic coming home from the Ocean.

* You love the Domino Sugar sign you can see across the harbor. (yes, I do. It was cool seeing it recently in the movie, "She's Just Not That Into You.")

* You remember the rotating restaurant on top off the Holiday Inn
on Light Street. (Yes!!! I went there too one time for a special occasion. I loved it.)

* You know Annapolis and Hopkins are national treasures and you get a kick out of hearing them named in movies or TV. (MMmmm hmm. Sure do)

* You know B&O is not body odor. (ha ha!)

* That downtown smelled great near McCormicks. (Yeah, that was really cool driving by there. Sometimes the combinations were odd though...cinnamon/garlic for instance. lol)

* Every kitchen has a can of Old Bay. (Sure do. Would never be without it. I use it on everything!)

* You refer to your state as "Marilyn." (I personally make sure I do not say it that way, however most Marylanders I know say it that way. I also don't call Baltimore "Balmer" like many people do. )

* You and your Mom shopped at Brager Gutmans, Hutzlers, The Hub, Stewart's, and The May Company. (Yes, we did Hutzlers at Golden Ring Mall before it closed.)

* You know where "Downey Ocean" is. (Oh my, so funny! I can hear it in my head now.)

* You remember the Civic Center. (Yes!!! went to so many things there including one General Council in the 70's.)

* You know Pam Shriver is from Maryland.

* You know how to eat steamed crabs and also know how to tell the males from the females. (Yes and I wish I had some right now. I miss them TERRIBLY. Just lamented about this to Shehan's the other night.)

* You don't think that Assawoman Bay is a strange name. (Sorry, although I'm from MD, and I've heard it a lot I still think it's strange.)

* M R Ducks makes perfect sense.

* You have fond memories of Memorial Stadium.

* You still root for the Orioles even when they aren't doing well.

* Everybody knows what a "zink" and "payment" are.

* When anywhere else, you can only laugh when you see signs saying "Maryland Crab Cakes!" (I don't laugh, I cry. Yes, I'm serious. (If you want proof, read this.)

* You say "Blare Road" for Bel Air Road. (Yes, I do say that.)

* You remember Jerry Turner and Al Sanders. (Old familiar faces.)

* You remember Oprah and Richard Sher together in the mornings on Ch-13. (I do!!! This was before she was the high priestess of the new age movement. Vintage Oprah.)

* Vince Bagli was "the" sports announcer on TV. (Yes, I remember my grandfather having the TV on and hearing his voice all the time.)

* You remember Mayor Schaeffer swimming with the seals at the National Aquarium.

* You swore Frank Perdue kinda looked like one of his tender chickens.

* You know which bridge they're talking about, when someone says "The bridge traffic is backed up." (yep!)

* You revere the names of Johnny U, Brooks and Frank!

* You actually understand all of these and pass them on to other Marylanders to enjoy!

Tuesday, March 24, 2009

Ten Reasons Men Should Not
Be Ordained for Ministry

(This post came from a pastor named Eddy, from his blog, Serving Bread. My husband found this and thought it was funny and passed it on to me. I'm married to a good man...)


10. A man's place is in the army.

9. The pastoral duties of men who have children might distract them from the responsibility of being a parent.

8. The physique of men indicates that they are more suited to such tasks as chopping down trees and wrestling mountain lions. It would be unnatural for them to do ministerial tasks.

7. Man was created before woman, obviously as a prototype. Thus, they represent an experiment rather than the crowning achievement of creation.

6. Men are too emotional to be priests or pastors. Their conduct at football and basketball games demonstrates this.

5. Some men are handsome, and this will distract women worshipers.

4. Pastors need to nurture their congregations. But this is not a traditional male role. Throughout history, women have been recognized as not only more skilled than men at nurturing, but also more fervently attracted to it. This makes them the obvious choice for ordination.

3. Men are prone to violence. No really masculine man wants to settle disputes except by fighting about them. Thus they would be poor role models as well as dangerously unstable in positions of leadership.

2. The New Testament tells us that Jesus was betrayed by a man. His lack of faith and ensuing punishment remind us of the subordinated position that all men should take.

1. Men can still be involved in church activities, even without being ordained. They can sweep sidewalks, repair the church roof, and perhaps even lead the song service on Father's Day. By confining themselves to such traditional male roles, they can still be vitally important in the life of the church.

Monday, March 23, 2009

Check out these posts...

Great post by my friend Danella Auten, pastor's wife, about the recent news of the pastor who was shot and killed. A lot to think about in this post... thanks Danella.

My friend Pastor Leanne Weber and her husband Patrick are losing weight on behalf of BGMC!

Debbie Shank, pastor's wife and women's conference leader/speaker has this great post on the real truth of the Proverbs 31 Woman.

My friend Cassandra Stafford, also a pastor's wife, wrote this post that immediately resonated with my heart and made me want to sit down with a cup of coffee and a bunch of PW friends.

Sunday, March 22, 2009

The Breakfast Song

This isn't exactly the best performance of a song that you've ever seen or heard, however I think the funniest thing is, it's definitely one of the worst examples of songwriting that I've ever experienced. But one thing for sure, this gave me a HUGE laugh. The funniest thing is, these people are SERIOUS! Enjoy!

Saturday, March 21, 2009

The Steelers lose half
of their Superbowl Trophies!

Super Bowl XLIII Champion Pittsburgh Steelers, the only team to win six titles, will soon be losing half of those trophies. After a meeting between NFL Commissioner Rodger Gadel and President Barack Hussein Obama, Obama decided to redistribute half of their Steeler Super Bowl victories and trophies to less fortunate teams in the league. “We live everyday in the country that invented the Super Bowl.” said Obama “We are not about to lose this Great American tradition in the wake of these difficult times.”

Obama’s plan calls for the Steelers, who are a successful NFL team, to give half of their Super Bowl trophies to teams that are not successful or have not been as successful as the Steelers. “The Detroit Loins are just as much a part of the same fiber of the NFL as the Steelers and they should, no rather will, be entitled to a Super Bowl Trophy as well.” Obama explains in his plan that he has imposed on Godel and the NFL.

The Pittsburgh Steelers, who by virtue of hard work, excellent team play, stellar draft choices, responsible investing of free agents, careful hiring of coaches and excellent community service and commitment to their fans, has prospered greatly during the past 30 years and have won six Super Bowl Trophies. But President Barack Hussein Obama’s plan calls for the Pittsburgh Steelers to carry the larger burden of the NFL’s less successful teams. Obama went on to further proclaim, “In these difficult times we are all in this to work together. We must reclaim the NFL Championship Dream for every team, for every city and for every fan.”“My plan will not affect 31 of the 32 teams in the league.” Obama assures. That’s over 95 percent of the teams in the NFL will not have to worry about losing any Super Bowl Trophies. “The worst teams in the NFL and the teams that can’t seem to get a break and win a championship will no longer have to worry about going without a title.” Obama promises. “We are a country and league of hope. We all need to make a change. It does not matter the color of the teams uniforms, the personal decisions that the teams make or their performance but rather if they are a member of this great American league.”

The Super Bowl XLIII trophy will be redistributed to the 0-16 Detroit Lions. Through no fault of their own incompetence, the Lions could not manage a victory all season and this trophy will help ease the pain of their lack of performance and give them hope once again. The redistribution of Super Bowl XL trophy will go directly to the Steeler’s division rival the Cincinnati Bengals. The Bengals who also have fallen on hard times have never won a Super Bowl. This victory will bring a smile to hundreds of Bengal fans all over the world as they can now celebrate.

Finally, one of the Steeler’s two Super Bowl victories over the Dallas Cowboys will go back to the Cowboys since the league needs to provide hope in the face of difficulty and provide hope in the face of uncertainty. This is a heavy burden for the Steelers but together we can all prosper. All hope is not lost for Pittsburgh fans, Barack Hussein Obama has another plan in place. Obama has meet with MLB and commissioner Bud Selig on a similar plan. The New York Yankees will redistribute two of their world series trophies to the Pittsburgh Pirates as a supplement to their loosing 16 straight seasons and counting. This plan will help stimulate the Pirates and enable them to regain the American Dream. Barack Hussein Obama will be meeting with the NHL and Michael Phelps in the upcoming weeks as this issue is high on his agenda for “Hope and Change."

Friday, March 20, 2009

He's Just Not That Into You

Last night we saw the movie, "He's Just Not That Into You". I was already familiar with the book that came out years ago. Although I don't agree with some of the principles discussed in the book and movie because they are not in line with scripture, I do definitely think the authors have one great point that bears examining closer. I wish many women could get it through their heads, because at the heart of this book is actually a message of self worth. I really wish that a Christian author would come up with a similar book, pointed at Christian singles, devoid of the unbiblical parts of the book. Because this is a message desperately needed especially for young women.

Things I am convinced of:

It never behooves you to chase a man who is giving you any vibes that he is not interested. This is really cheapening yourself and has nothing to do with love, but a devauling of oneself on behalf of another. When you get down to it, continuing to pursue a man who has said he doesn't want you actually sets the man up as an idol in your life. Idols are wrong no matter what your intentions.

It doesn't matter how long you dated, were engaged or even lived together ~ if he's not responding to your texts, answering your calls, ignoring your e-mail or giving you one word or one sentence answers...WHAT ABOUT THIS DON'T YOU UNDERSTAND? Everyone sees it but you, I guarantee it.

When a girl finally gets it through her head that he doesn't want a relationship and comes emotionally crashing down the thing is, nobody else around her is ever surprised. A few will probably dare to ask, "how could you not see it?" They totally get it. They've all known for days, weeks, months. The young lady simply ignored their wisdom or refused to even allow them to express it while she continued with her psycho behavior. (Yes, it is psycho to call, text, IM, and otherwise cyber-stalk a man when he clearly does not want to talk to you or pursue the relationship any further.)

As the author of HJNTIY, Greg Behrandt says, "He's stopped calling you, he's not sure he wants to marry you, he's having sex with someone else? Just drop him and get on with your life. Always be classy. Never be crazy. This means don't call him; don't ask him to come back; don't ask what's changed or what's gotten into him; don't try to find out if he moved back in with his previous girlfriend. Just move on and, 'Don't waste the pretty.'"

This is advice from a secular book however I believe it's very sound wisdom. God wants His women to see themselves as He sees us. When looking through God's eyes, we find our value and we realize, we do not need to grovel, emotionally or physically prostitute ourselves (that's really what it is), to turn into psychos, to make a man our idol, to continue to throw ourselves at his feet through all of the media technologies available. If we rest in knowing who we are in Christ, and get comfortable with who God has made us to be, He will in His time send a man worthy of our love and affections, if we are called to marriage. Some have actually made marriage or the goal of marriage their idol. That's another post for another day.

I believe this extends to really any other relationship in life. We teach people how to treat us. I have endeavored to teach my daughter from the very beginning to value herself and not allow people to mistreat her. I have taught her that no group of friends at school, church or elsewhere is worth being abused. I've said over and over, "honey, if someone shuts you out and cruelly says, "you can't be in our group", don't you dare pander to them! Don't lower yourself to their level. Simply rise up and say, "hey, I'm starting my own group!" And then do it! (Usually when you do that the same people are soon begging to be in your group, and suddenly you find yourself in the driver's seat. Funny how that works.) Groveling is not only painful, and totally humiliating, but it doesn't make you any more attractive to whoever you are throwing yourself at. They don't think, "wow, this girl really loves me, " but instead they think, "Man, this girl is psycho. What more do I have to do to lose her?" The sad thing is, some Christian young ladies will even twist the Bible to rationalize this psycho or stalker behavior as Biblical. 

I love this quote from the movie: "Never make someone your priority while allowing yourself to be their option." It really, really is all about self worth. No woman who sees herself as God does would knock herself out on a man who is simply viewing her as an option. The man who is destined to be with you for life doesn't see you as one of his options, but the one he "can't live without" not the one he is convinced through your psycho behavior to be with.

Ladies in ministry, it's often times frustrating but we have a task before us to get today's women to realize that one is a whole number. They need not throw themselves at the feet of anyone but Jesus.

p.s. another thing I loved about the movie was ~ it was set in Baltimore!

Thursday, March 19, 2009

Photos from Jordan's 18th birthday party

The whole church as well as Jordan's friends from outside the church were invited last night to a celebration after service.

And the world just gets
stranger by the day...

Here's a story that hit the news media this week about a mother who is helping her downs syndrome son to find someone to have sex with. Love? Marriage? NO. Just sex. And that's not all...she wants to help him find someone to father a child with. The more I read this story, the more disturbing I found it to be. Not the fact that disabled people desire to, or have sex. I think that's great if they are married! But what this mother is doing is so immoral.

First, she has encouraged her son to go to night clubs and have one night stands and is saddened that he is not having any luck. Second, she is considering sending him to a brothel if she can't find someone to have sex with him soon through the dating scene. Third, I am sure these people are not Christians, however what happened to LOVE? Even for someone who has no religious affiliation, I find it appalling behavior. Why isn't she encouraging him instead to find a friend and then ultimately a mate -- a wife, and allow the plan to unfold in that way?

For those who say that he probably wouldn't find anyone, I disagree. First, there are cases of people who are not disabled marrying disabled people. (Joni Eareckson Tada being just one famous one - although she does not have downs, she is a quadripligic and is married to a completely healthy man who she married AFTER becoming disabled.) Second, I have heard of several cases of downs syndrome individuals marrying others also with downs syndrome that they are acquainted with from various schools or social groups they are a part of. What a beautiful story of love and commitment that would be, but THIS??! This is wacked.

Just when you think the world can't get any more bizarre, a story comes out like this.

Wednesday, March 18, 2009

We made it!
Today's the big day!!!

Let us hold unswervingly to the hope we profess, for he who promised is faithful. Hebrews 10:23

Today, March 18, 2009 is a major day in our household. Our son Jordan turned 18 years old today. All of heaven is rejoicing that this day has come! I have often said, if I could just make it with Jordan until he is 18, I will have accomplished a great thing as his mother. Simply raising him to this point, alive and all in one piece is cause for major celebration! If you are reading this and you have never met Jordan, you have NO IDEA. But if you know him, you realize what I'm talking about.

Jordan has been a handful ever since the day he was born. When he was just a little guy I took him to the doctors and said, "Something is very wrong with this child. He jumps off of everything!" In fact when he was just 10 months old we would hear a bang or a splat in the middle of the night and come into his room. He would stand up on the bars of his crib and leap off into the dark, unafraid. We used to have to tie his legs down with long tube socks on his high chair even in public, because if we didn't he would injure himself terribly. It must have looked like we were abusive parents, tying our child down while he squirmed, but if we did not, he would seriously be injured. He hardly slept and I was absolutely run ragged.

I said, "Do you think he needs medication?"
The doctor tested him and said, "No, I do not think he needs medication."
I said, "Fine then. Please give ME the medication." (GRIN)

When Jordan was still in diapers, at about 2 years of age, we were at a church prayer meeting one night. Laura and Kelly who were young teens in the church wanted to watch him there under my supervision which I allowed. Afterwards we went to McDonalds where the adults drank coffee and talked and Jordan and his brother went into the playground with the two girls who kept an eye on them. Afterwards the girls asked me if they could take the boys and put them in their car seats in preparation to go home. Since it was only a few feet or so out the door I said it was fine. But a moment later, Laura came rushing in and crying saying that she had no idea what happened but Jordan had "escaped". What actually took place was that when they walked out the door she let go of his hand for a second. That's all it takes with Jordan...a second. We raced outside yelling his name, running between cars, shouting, looking under cars, going towards the road. We couldn't find him anywhere. Finally after about five minutes which seemed like an eternity, we heard a sweet tiny voice call out, "Momma, I'm up here!" Gazing up, we saw that Jordan was on the roof of the McDonalds! Yes, I. AM. SERIOUS.

How in the world had this happened? Well, there was a ladder along the side of the building leading up to the roof. It was unlocked. Jordan had noticed it and when Laura let go of his hand he ran and shimmied up the ladder so fast, by the time she looked around he was evidently already up where she never thought to look! Amazing. To make a very long story short, my husband climbed up the ladder to get him off of the roof, while I was imploring him to please stand still and not jump. (He would have -- he has no fear.)

Life with Jordan for 18 years has been an extreme adventure. When he was a youngster, babysitters quit on us left and right. Most couldn't handle him. One time I came home from a date with my husband when Jordan was just a pre-schooler, the babysitter exasperated and upset said, "Jordan jumped out the window!"
I matter of factly said, "okay, how many times?"

The sitter incredulously said, "HOW MANY TIMES?"

I said, "well just once would be an improvement, so I was just curious."

Another sitter bit the dust.

Jordan picks up cottonmouths and water moccasins without any fear (and kills them so they won't be a danger to others). He climbs walls where there is nothing to hold onto, can still run faster than any kid I know and whip up an entire dinner in under an hour and have a tremendous buffet spread on the table.

These are just a few things he can do ~ there is so much more it would take me hours to tell you.

What is my point today? Aside from the fact that I'm just happy it's my son's birthday I want to encourage you that God is faithful. Some of you are younger mothers and you are frustrated with little children who are exhausting and you wonder if you are really going to survive motherhood and be alright. I am here to tell you that you can not only survive, you can thrive. Prayer is the main thing that has helped me through with the challenges of Jordan. I have had to pray over him constantly and I often boast to him that he is responsible for increasing my prayer life like nothing else!

There were many days I was fearful that I didn't have what it took to be Jordan's mother. I would question, "Lord, did you really think I was up to this task?" I feared so many times that he would hurt himself in some serious way or maybe even die. I feared that he would be in juvenile hall. When he was a youngster in elementary school and was disciplined 17 times in one day, I had visions of him being in a penitentiary. How crazy! I'm glad to say, I finally learned to turn those cares over to the Lord and received His peace.

 I had to keep committing Jordan to him and believing God's best for him even when it seemed things got crazier and the nursery director at church ran to the sanctuary and found me because Jordan had escaped from the nursery and run out toward a four lane highway, or years later when his principal in middle school called because he had taken over the leadership of the school cafeteria. He commanded all the student's attention by standing on top of a table and singing a song for everyone and performed his own little show. (Part of the issue is, he is truly funny so many times this just eggs him on more when people laugh at his antics.)

A few years ago while in high school I got a notice that Jordan had been suspended. I was heartsick. Larry and I were just devastated. The teacher had passed out a test in science. It was a scantron with "A,B,C,D" answers. Jordan was in the front row and got his test first and before the teacher had even finished passing them out, Jordan shouted,"OH MY WORD! THE ANSWERS ARE ALL B!!! Just check B, everybody!"

Right then, the teacher collected all the tests, and told the class it would not count for any of them but Jordan would receive an F. The teacher then told us the truth that indeed, she had made the test so that every single answer was "B"! This made the test totally obsolete when Jordan shouted what he did. Jordan was so smart he realized that every answer was B, but he couldn't keep his mouth shut and impulsively shouted it out.

I said, "Jordan you would have gotten an A if you just would have kept quiet."
He said, "I know Mom but what teacher goes and makes all the answers B? That was so dumb. I just couldn't believe it so I yelled!"

[Sigh] "It might never get better..." I would think.

Sometimes I was so exhausted and anxious in these last 18 years, but then God's Word would counteract that and say to me: So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand." Isaiah 41:10

Jordan is eighteen, and healthy and well. He's still a ball of energy. We still have our challenges at times, but I celebrate every victory large and small. Today is a great one. Most notable ~

He loves the Lord.

He uses his talents for him.

He still loves his father and I deeply even though it seems like all we did for YEARS was discipline him.

He is a hard working young man who is loved and respected by everyone at his job.

And so much more!

Mom, are you tired? "Jesus said, "Come to me, all of you who are weary and carry heavy burdens, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you. Let me teach you, because I am humble and gentle at heart, and you will find rest for your souls." Matthew 11:28 & 29:

You can make it! God is with you! He will sustain you and He will help you to raise Godly children even when it feels like everything is going wrong on some days and you think you can't make it, DON'T LOOK AROUND, LOOK UP! THE LORD IS WITH YOU!!! He will sustain you and He will help you to raise your child in the "fear and admonition of the Lord" as the Bible says.

p.s. We're having a birthday celebration for Jordan tonight after the service in Oasis. If you are in Tampa, you are all invited to stop by and share in our joy that he has reached this milestone.

p.s.s. please keep praying for Jordan, and for us! He might be 18 but we could still all use the prayers as he continues to navigate the waters of young adulthood. Thank you!

Tuesday, March 17, 2009

Madeline update

Maddie yesterday walking around on our bed. She is starting to be more like her old self although she's wearing this contraption on her head.

She's doing much better today, in fact she's getting into EVERYTHING again! The frustrating thing is, she has this stupid thing on her head and she's like a bull in a china shop (ha ha!) running through the house and knocking things over with it. We are really trying hard to train Maddie right and make her not only housebroken but a well behaved dog. It's taking an enormous amount of time, and I still think we might put her in Petsmart's obedience classes. Today I was trying to get my Zune earphones away from her as she picked them up and was chewing on them and she flung around because she was upset about me taking them from her, and knocked an iced tea over that was on the end table. She's back to her sometimes ornery self and I am ready for a break. I have been working on a zillion projects at one time which has not been easy. Larry has a board meeting tonight and I'm doing a bunch of stuff while trying to keep her under control. I hate to just put her in the kennel. I don't like to keep her in there unless she is sleeping. We will have some sense of normalcy again soon I'm sure. Larry held her while I took this picture of her below. She was even giving me an attitude about taking her photo so he just held her up and said, "you're getting your picture taken." I swear sometimes a dog can really be like a stubborn toddler.

There is actually some truth to this...

Our church people who read my blog are undoubtedly laughing at this...

Monday, March 16, 2009

Poor little Maddie...

We had to take Madeline today to get her spayed. I know it was necessary for her own good but I dreaded it. I had angst about it all day until they called us to tell us she was fine and we could come and get her. She came home and of course is very sleepy and lethargic and she has to wear this thing around her head that prevents her from biting at her stitches. She is so uncomfortable with it. We take it off while we are holding her so she can be more comfy while laying down under our watchful eye.

I love her so much. I really do not know what I would ever do if something happened to our precious Maddie. I'm so glad this day is over and we can move on. Hopefully she will never ever have to have any more procedures.

I'm pregnant again!

No, not me. Pick yourself back up off the floor. It would be a nightmare for Teeb but a dream for me! However as all my friends know, another baby is not destined for me. However, "I'm pregnant again!" is the title of this essay that my dear friend, Sis. June Coker, sent me. Very thought provoking and worth passing on to others.

A worried woman went to her gynecologist and said: "Doctor, I have a serious problem and desperately need your help! My baby is not even one year old and I'm pregnant again. I don't want kids so close together."

So the doctor said: "Ok, and what do you want me to do?"

She said: "I want you to end my pregnancy, and I'm counting on your help with this."

The doctor thought for a little, and after some silence he said to the lady: "I think I have a better solution for your problem. It's less dangerous for you too."

She smiled, thinking that the doctor was going to accept her request.

Then he continued: "You see, in order for you not to have to take care of two babies at the same time, let's kill the one in your arms. This way, you could rest some before the other one is born. If we're going to kill one of them, it doesn't matter which one it is. There would be no risk for your body if you chose the one in your arms."

The lady was horrified and said: "No doctor! How terrible! It's a crime to kill a child!"

"I agree", the doctor replied. "But you seemed to be ok with it, so I thought maybe that was the best solution."

The doctor smiled, realizing that he had made his point. He convinced the mom that there is no difference in killing a child that's already been born and one that's still in the womb. The crime is the same!

If only our very "wise" President had such wisdom.

* Photos are of me with a precious little one from our church, Jedidiah Scott Lilly. I can't have any more babies but at least I can hold everyone else's. :-)