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I Need to Learn Love All Over Again



Yesterday God spoke to me that I need to learn about love all over again.
Not from the example of people.
From the source.
Him.

Sometimes even the earthly sources that were designed to receive love from end up in an epic fail.  Not only do we not get love, we get hurt. And then we end up feeling unloved.  It may be someone who we need love from -- a parent or spouse, and for some reason they are broken and don't have the capacity to love.

And it slays us.



Then we imprint our experience with them on God and think that's how He works. But He doesn't. He's perfect. And we miss out on the love of God because we don't trust Him due to our experience with fractured people.

So yesterday regarding this kind of love that I'm longing for, (and will more than likely never get), He said, "Don't project that onto me. Just start again, and learn my love." 

Start at square one and learn of Me.

I made a playlist on Spotify that speaks to me about His love and have been saturating myself in it.



"This Is What Love Is" List 

Your Forever ~ Dara Maclean
You Are For Me ~ Kari Jobe
Love Came Down ~ Kari Jobe
Held ~ Natalie Grant
In Better Hands - Natalie Grant
Arms of Love ~ Amy Grant
In This Forever ~ Rita Springer
You Are Love ~ Laura Story
The Truth About Me ~ Mandisa

I'm building on this list but it's what I have now. And I just keep listening and soaking in it...marinating while I read my Bible and Jesus Calling and Jesus Today by Sarah Young.

And, I have a big stack of Kleenex next to me, because as I'm letting go of hurts from experiencing faux love, and letting Him speak to me and teach me about love all over again ~ the real kind. His kind.

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