That might be your reality right now. And if so, no pun intended, but I understand!
Something that helps me a little bit when I am feeling a lack of understanding is to do a check up on myself and try to give understanding in greater measure to others who are hurting.
Greater understanding might not come your way for a while. (Just keepin' it real!) But giving it away to others is such a great feeling knowing you are making a real difference in the world.