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Everything has changed

I usually don't blog anything big on a Saturday.  The reason being, most of my readers aren't here.  They are out weeding their yards, like I often am on Saturdays.  They are doing laundry, attending ball games, baby showers, shopping, or watching TLC.  Rarely are they just sitting around reading blogs on Saturdays.   My stats tell me loud and clear each week that the majority of my readers depart by Friday afternoons and come back in droves Monday morning.

For a season I started just posting a photo I took or a video of a song that was meaningful to me on Saturdays and saved the "important stuff" for later when people were actually around to read it.  But today I don't care.  Here I am.  With something big...at least to me.

I've been disobedient to God on something.  Some of you might think I chose Saturday to bring out the fact that I've been a naughty Christian , since fewer readers are here...ha ha!  No, not really, the timing just fell this way.

God directed me to write my next book on a certain subject years ago. 
I didn't.

First, because every time I write or speak about this I go through hell.
And who likes to go through hell?  Not me.  I avoid hell wherever possible. 

Second, it's not really marketable.
None of the experts would advise me to do this.  

But God hasn't lifted that call and I've come to realize sadly enough that maybe some of the problems I have gone through have been due to my disobedience.

This past week has been the best of times and the worst of times for me.  I know I sound like I'm running around in circles here, giving details and no details at the same time.  (Keep in mind I have none of this copyrighted yet so I'm  not throwing the details of this book out there.)  I'm saying just what I feel God wants me to say at this time.  The bottom line is this...I'm fully on board for the first time in a long time with what God started in me long ago and desires to complete.


Last night I was very stressed through some circumstances.  This is no surprise since I was so close to a breakthrough on this.  Very pressured and sorely needing to just get by myself, I went to my bath tub.   God speaks to me everywhere through everything but one place that He so clearly and loudly speaks is in the tub.  As I'm soaking - in the quiet, alone, He speaks.  Last night while I was melting my stress away with hot water and Moonlight Path, He so clearly broke through and gave me my marching orders. I could hardly wait to get out of the tub and to my computer.  I promptly wrote to three of my best friends to say, "Here's what He said!" expecting them to hold me accountable to stay true.

Everything has changed because I've changed.


Thanks for your prayers ~ I'm gonna need 'em!  The devil is none too happy...as I came to this revelation in the tub I could just envision him saying, "OH CRAP!  SHE'S BACK IN THE GAME..."

Comments

Anonymous said…
Been walking through hell myself this week. At a fork in the road and I'm unsure which path to take. I pray for you daily, Deanna.

My stats do the same each weekend, but I just pray that the blog will be directed to whomever it is to reach. We blog for God's glory, so it all goes back to Him!

I look forward to your words every day. Never doubt what a blessing you are! ~ Ruth

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