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What do I really want?



Indulge me. Most of the time I have to worry about what everyone else wants. Kind of goes along with the territory of living a life of service and oh how I do love serving others! But occasionally we do have to think about what we want. Growing up I was taught a song in Sunday School that said, "Jesus and others and you, what a wonderful way to spell JOY!" Well, Jesus and others are first, but don't forget, you are part of the equation too and need to be on the list, albeit third at least much of the time.

On my birthday Saturday I reflected on what I learned this past year. Today I'm pondering what I really want right now.

I want to be closer to Jesus.

I want to have a P.J. day soon. (Usually have this once or twice a year where I stay in my PJ's all day and do nothing but lay there, refuse to shower, and watch TV. We order in food or my family cooks. On a perfect day Larry makes spaghetti. I save the dishes til' the next day or yell at my family until they do them. It's my one or two days of "total rest" a year. Heaven!)

I want to read the Bible slower. I still read it way too fast, just like everything else. Like many people I experience quantity but not necessarily quality from it that I should. I need to be perfectly okay with three verses taking me a whole week if I really honestly have a grasp on what God is trying to say there...

I want to have better communication with my husband. Yes, I know we are two people who communicate for a living but for all of that, well... if you are a communicator by profession you understand what I mean...you can fail miserably at home at what you do well at work. I don't feel hypocritical anymore because I readily admit our failures, yet that doesn't mean I'm content to let it stay that way. I hope he's not either.

I want to get in great shape again.

I want to be back to 100% health again.


I want to see Excel become obselete because I think it's of the devil learn Excel really well because everybody else in my company knows it like the back of their hand and I'm woefully behind the curve on it.

I want my kids to be happy. I know their holiness is most important, however it breaks my heart when they aren't happy and I desperately want them to be.

I want to learn as much as I possibly can this year, especially from Kathryn. Who knows how long she's going to be leading me before she gets promoted? It's just a matter of time. Most people don't miss the water til' the well runs dry. I always want to be the type of person who appreciates the daylights out of the water while it's still here.

I want to get and keep the weeds in my yard 100% under control.

I want to become a lot more organized.

I want to get rid of a lot of Larry's junk I've accumulated in my house that I don't need anymore.

I want to visit my sister in Charlotte, NC and go to Boone with her. Preferably it will be when the leaves are turning. I want to stand there and take in a huge breath of air looking up at the trees and savor the moment.

I want to stop the habit of letting e-mails pile up in my box when they have decisions or counsel attached to them. I will answer them in one or two sentences rather than taking a week or more and writing more extensively.

I want to let go of worry permanently.

I want to be 100% victorious in my personal theme for this year: "Fearless" and go into 2010 having conquered that and ready for the next milestone.

I want to go to the beach more.

I want Larry to make spaghetti for me more.

I want to go on a trip with my daughter by ourselves.

I want to work through disappointments much more quickly and not let them make me depressed for any significant amount of time.

I [still] want an Amazon Kindle, but am waiting for it to come down more in $.

I want to stop breaking things to the point of bleeding handle anger better.

I want to take more naps. With Maddie. And not feel guilty about spending my time doing that.

I want to sit in front of my fireplace on the patio in the evening just as soon as the weather turns again. I am counting the days.

I want to go to the library and lay on a bean bag chair for a few hours and read.


I want to eat a smore without guilt.

I want to meet the team from Fox News in person. One of my dreams would be to have lunch with them, or meet them for my birthday.

I want to eat an ice cream with sprinkles that looks just like the photo at the top.

I want to be an inspiration.



Comments

susan said…
just wanted to let you know you are an inspiration to me.
Anonymous said…
I agree with Susan. And I also wanted to add to your comments about your chidren's happiness "A mother is only as happy as her saddest child". Heard from another inspiration Beth Moore. Thanks for being you.
Michele said…
PD check off to be an inspriation because you already are from how you serve people- to how real you are to how you have raised your children
And the PJ day sounds fabulous I need to try that someday

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