Thursday, October 09, 2008

Hello. My name is Deanna, and I am...



I tell myself each day, "I'm not going to do it anymore."

Then I find myself doing it. Even though I have my accountability partner more days that not, I'm singing, "oops, I did it again..."

I would say my addiction started somewhere in elementary school, only it didn't become full blown until adulthood. Like any addiction it didn't start out of control -- it was a subtle thing at first, that looked harmless but slowly it grew into such an overpowering force that I finally needed to seek professional help. I've been getting that help now for over three years but each day is still an uphill battle, and just like my friends who are going to AA, I say, "one day at a time." I call upon my higher power each day to help me in this war I am waging.

Each day that I succumb to the temptation again I tell myself the next day will be different. And the next day I'm always asking myself how I find myself at this same spot...again.

Porn? No, it's not that. It's much more readily available, believe it or not and there is no sneaking necessary. Most people will join me in this practice in a heartbeat.

Drugs? No, it's not illegal and so much easier to get. A two year old or an 80 year old anywhere in America probably has it within 20 feet of them at any given time just down the hallway.

Ladies and gentlemen, I am addicted to...

peanut butter and jelly.

Please pray for me.

8 comments:

Tara Sloan said...

Now it has been confirmed... you are giddy from being up so late! bUT that is WHEN WE HAVE THE MOST FUN, RIGHT???? What I wouldn't give right now for one of those nights in the hotel where we are laughing hysterically over anything and everything... it seems that we would need to add some P&J though!!!!

Sharon said...

I wanted you to know read your blog today. :0)

~Sharon~
A Hoosier Family- http://hoosierfamily06.blogspot.com

Leanne said...

My husband shares your addiction. I will pray for Larry as well :o).

In all seriousness - I totally understand foods that we just can't stay away from. We say we're not even going to buy them and keep them in the house (like our WW leader suggests!), but then we get to the store, and feel like we're strong enough to buy them and just control our portions. And so we bring them home and the vicious cycle begins again....

Not a PB&J fan, but I could definitely eat a grilled cheese every day of my life!!

DaNella Auten said...

Yeah I figgured as much...
lol
DaNella

LAURIE said...

depending on what KIND of jelly? if it is just something plain like grape - you definetly need prayer. But if it is something wonderful like raspberry then I'm with you sista!

Melissa said...

I think the jelly has gotten to your brain! What's the term, this is your brain, this is your brain on jelly (drugs)...lol! I'm totally committed to PBJ! Hey at least if the economy gets worse you can always depend on the wonderful PBJ to give you just about everything you need nutritionally! :-) Love ya!

Christelle said...

my addiction is Starbucks and Snickers bars... AUGH!

Pastor Shelisa Hull said...

I got up this morning and the thought of cereal again was just not hitting the spot. I opened the cubbard....saw the peanut butter and thought YES!! A PB&J sandwich. As I ate my sandwich this morning for BREAKFAST....I couldn't help but think back on this post and giggle to myself that there was anothers pastors wife out there with her own PB&J addiction. Ha ha ha ha ha!!! :D