I have struggled with something the Lord has asked me to do. Something I've done for a long time. Something I've even been asked to teach others to do. But when it doesn't have the end result I desire, I tend to not want to ever do it again.
At the same time I chafe against the attitude of this millenial generation that so often asks, "what's in it for me?" and if the answer is "nothing" they often don't listen any further. I hate that. I despise it. I rail against it. Yet now I realize it's exactly what I'm doing when God is asking me to do something once again that has absolutely not a whit of value for me at times, save the joy of knowing that I simply obeyed Him. Can that be enough? It has to be.
Lest I become exactly what I can't stand in others, I need to find joy in simply obeying God. There really is value in obedience to Christ alone.
I will do the hard thing Jesus has asked me to do again just because He asked.
I will invest even when it doesn't work out like I hoped it would.
I will give when I don't see the reward or value on earth.
I will do what He asks me to do.
I might, however, need counseling first...
or at least a brownie.
Thank you for your prayers and any donations of brownies you might want to send my way at:
Northside Assembly of God
16235 Lake Magdalene Blvd.
Tampa, FL 33613