Other than those two amazing things, it was a year from the pits. I can't for the life of me imagine that it was from God. My son getting so sick and coming down with a near fatal disease? My husband having an operation and one year recovery? (Yep, he's still recovering...will be til' October) My car being totaled? And some other things happened, that due to their confidential nature (ahhh yes, the ministry) I won't mention.
I thought 2008 was going to be radically different and declared it so even before it began. And so did some other people. Several people prophesied over me..."this is your year, Deanna!" I'm starting to ask, "my year for what?!" Actually they (the Lord through them) told me for what...a year of increase, power, breakthrough, yada yada. And I so desperately want to believe all that.
But here I am, facing another wall the past few months and thankfully some women who know how to get ahold of God have been hammering away at that brick wall in intercession for me. Thankfully God specializes in WALLS. Maybe I should get my friends to come to Tampa and we'll march around seven times and see what happens? LOL
Yesterday, I e-mailed my friends Pastor Tara Sloan and Pastor Sandy Phinazee to give them an update and what I considered a small praise report about 4 things, (actually to be exact, four out of 46 more that have to be accomplished for this particular breakthrough) and Tara got incredibly excited and said to Sandy and I via e-mail, "Ladies, right now, let's do the wave, four times! I'm serious, I just backed up from my desk and did it! Do it with me!" I have to confess, I did it right then, and later on opened her e-mail and did it again with her, for a total of eight times. :-) I am so thankful for friends who have FAITH when mine is weak. I am being strengthened even now, and I am coming out, through the power of His Spirit, fighting!
I am also thankful for God being so faithful to speak to me through so many avenues. Did you know God can speak to you through the news? Yes, He can. Today the news waves were full of the story with GM announcing their plans for cutbacks for this year and next, based on what's happening with the economy. After telling everyone about the new plan, the president of GM, Rick Wagoner, said this: "This is not a plan for survival, it's a plan to win." God reminded me, HIS plan for us is not survival, but a plan to WIN. Why am I experiencing such huge walls in front of me? Why did I face them last year? BECAUSE HUGE THINGS ARE AT STAKE! I am taking new ground that has never been taken before, in several areas. God has called you and I to win...to do exploits, but it doesn't come easily. "The kingdom of heaven suffereth violence, and the violent take it by force..." (Matthew 11:12)
Before bedtime last night I was reading come Away My Beloved and it was uncanny how it spoke to me in dealing with situations:
"O my beloved, do not be anxious concerning tomorrow. You shall encounter nothing of which I am not already aware...My wisdom has conceived a solution to every perplexity...I will not always cause favorable winds to blow upon your life, for then you would be at ease and you would soon grow soft and dull. It is when the wind is high and the waves are threatening that you become alert and keen, and then I can strenghten your spiritual fiber...You have no need to fear whether I will be faithful to you, for I have never failed anyone else, so why would I fail you? You have an innumerable company of spectators cheering you from the ramptarts of heaven, reminding you of what I did for them, and encouraging you that the struggle is not interminable, surprisingly soon it shall end in victory for you also - if you endure faithfully."