God really moved in a mighty way in our service. We got out an hour later than normal. Most everyone stayed til' the end. Larry preached on miracles and then prayed for people. I had a difficult morning with some worship issues that pretty much distracted me a lot and had me very frustrated. The one positive factor regarding this was that although David was absent today with a work issue, (and I was worried as to how things would go without him) Rich was there and he's so good he makes the vocals sound as smooth as butter. Amazing. With all other issues I had to deal with, at least the vocals weren't one of them. But otherwise I wanted to pop a gasket. I was fried after church and on the way home I talked to Larry and he said to me, "Deanna, I know you were very frustrated and I totally understand, but realize - no one else really caught on to those issues but you and the people were very blessed and didn't really realize what was going on..." That does give me comfort...basically the people were blessed. That's the main thing that is my concern. Although I went through my own private torment over the stuff -as long as the church family was blessed, I guess it's alright and I just need to move on and realize the next Sunday is a new day and a chance to start over.
We had a great women's meeting tonight - I thought it was good attendance - an expectant spirit among them and believing for great things! I felt like things flowed extremely well tonight - I was pleased. We really do have an incredibly sweet group of ladies. We are blessed - I am blessed! I am glad to claim them as "my own." I know that every pastor/pastor's wife can't say that about their people. There are some who have to pray hard to love the people they pastor. In 98% of cases, I don't have to do that - they are just incredibly easy to love! In the other extremely small amount of cases, I just pray through and the support and love of the other people tends to buoy my spirits when depression over it threatens. As I said, I'm blessed. God, you are so good to me. So good.
Susan took lots of photos tonight. I will be able to post some once she gives me a copy of them on Wed...I wish I would have had my laptop with me tonight to download them but I didn't...so I'll post them later on this week.
What a great week in the house of God. The people of God are pumped! So expectant for what's ahead. And so am I. I have my frustrated moments in "the details" and in those moments sometimes I want to run away from it all. But after I've had my 10-15 minutes in my office or in a Sunday School room somewhere calming down over whatever just happened that has me so upset, I come to realize...I love people, I love my church, I love ministry...it was just that I had a bad moment. And that's all it was...a moment.