Friday, October 12, 2007

I'm aspiring


Today is Friday, my day off and in keeping with my usual Friday activities, I rested and caught up on some extra blog reading. On work days I just read my top fav's each night, but on my day off, I am not limited by time. I go through and read all of them that are on my 'remotely interested" list while I slowly drink a cup of tea.

Today I came upon another one of those pastor's wife blogs that basically goes on and on about how we don't need to feel as if we need to aspire to more than any other woman or see ourselves as any kind of an "example"...just relax...no need to do all this striving. Just...give up! Let go!

I disagree.

But then again if you've been reading my blog very long, you know that.

Please don't think I mean we should just kill ourselves staying busy for busy's sake. What I refer to is the drive to improve - to polish - to allow God to work with us, and shape us.

Once I was asked by a young pw..."don't you just get sick of being an example?" My answer to her was that first of all, EVERY Christian woman is an example. All of us should realize that the whole world is looking to us, pastor's wife/pastor or not. However, I do feel a responsibility not only as a Christian, but as a leader to ASPIRE. Just because we cannot full attain until heaven, does that mean we do not ASPIRE to greatness in all the areas of our life? I am far from attaining, but as much as possible, in all the ways that matter (that being the operative phrase here) I want to ASPIRE.

So, I can't be a perfect wife. I still want to aspire.

I can't be the perfect mother. I still want to aspire.

I can't be the perfect pastor/pastor's wife. I still want to aspire.

I can't be the perfect hostess. I still want to aspire.

I can't have the perfect body. But I can aspire.

I can't be the perfect Sunday School teacher. I still want to aspire.

I can't be the perfect lover, but I can aspire.

I can't be the perfect friend, but I can aspire.

I can't be the perfect intercessor. But I can aspire.

I can't be the perfect writer. But I can aspire.

I can't be the perfect neighbor. But I can aspire.


I can't be the perfect housekeeper. I still want to aspire.

GET THE PICTURE?

Just because we know we will be imperfect on this earth, does that mean we give up? No, it means we dust ourselves off, and keep going and allow God to keep molding us, making us, and shaping us into the best vessel we can be on this earth.

I can't be just like my grandmother. But I can aspire.

I'm not going to just lay down and use the "I don't need to strive to be any more than anyone else" excuse... the "I'm going to lay down this heavy 'yoke' of being the example" excuse. Yes, it takes work, and sometimes it's tiring, but I'm going to aspire. Because although I will not be perfect here on this earth, I want to be SOMETHING, and the only way to be something, is to aspire, not to give up.

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