Today, Oswald Chambers in My Utmost for His Highest writes, "We have to get into the habit of carefully listening to God about everything, forming the habit of finding out what He says and heeding it. If, when a crisis comes, we instinctively turn to God, we will know that the habit has been formed in us. We have to take the initiative where we are, not where we have not yet been."
I guess I'm where I should be in one regard, that I do instinctively and immediately turn to God when I feel any confusion or crisis of any sort. I guess I have lived long enough on the planet to know that NOTHING else satisfies, NOTHING else will help me get through, bring joy back to my heart, or rectify the problem in any way. God and God alone - that's the bottom line.
Today was a mixture of a day - a real blend. Good things going on with staff, and planning the service for Sunday, and I have also done well this week with my weight and gone down some more...steady, slow but sure! I'm only a few pounds away from goal. GLORY TO GOD! I could not take this for one minute longer (and I've been doing it over 2 years now) without His grace upon my life every day. Truly I do turn to Him for help in this matter on a constant basis. Some days are easier than others. Wednesdays are typically easier because it's my weigh in day. And that usually motivates me either way. If I lost, I feel the victory and want to lose more. If I gained, I'm disgusted about it and moved to do something. I am trying to form His habits in me. The other day I was reading the Word where it says that Jesus went to the synagogue, as was His custom. That jumped out and I thought, "what are my customs?" Jesus had habits...customs. I have to be careful that my customs line up with His.
Today was stressful on the other hand for two reasons -- Larry and I had a tiff (shock of all shocks, we are NOT perfect...) and...Dustin was hurt with a situation hat we were helping him through.
Life just got interesting a moment ago. Jordan tells me he has a paper due...tomorrow. And says, "Mom, what should I do it on? Can you help me?" Uh, okay, I'm going to try to not hit the ceiling............uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...c'ya!